Dah Besar Nak Jadi Apa?

its been a dull day for these 2 off days i've had. happy birthday to my sis and my bro, their 22 and 17 respectively. how big they've grown. been playing neopets. to be exact, i'm playing the stock market of Neodaq. sounds stupid i know.

oh my god .......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... really got nothing to do rite now, seriously. fuuh... ok... ok...

aku nak jadi ape bila aku dah besar nanti? when i was little, i used to like science. i remembered i told my mother that i wanna be a scientist. bullshit? maybe...
then i remembered when i was in primary school, my teacher asked my class to draw what we wanna be when we're grown up. i drew a policeman. i do not know why i drew a policeman but i suspected its easier to draw or maybe its nicer to draw. but truthfully, i'm afraid of policemen. when they're in presence, my heart tends to pound a bit faster, afraid that is, even though i know i didn't do anything wrong. well that's because when i was young, mak aku takut2kan aku dgn mat2 police. thanks emak....

then in secondary school, i was in love with football. the problem is, my mother tried to stop me from playing football, she forced me to join science club than soccer in my primary school times. thanks again emak... i was a science club member from primary 3 to primary 4. then i got bored and joined badminton for a year only and i was not chosen cos i lost a game during the trials, i'm suck at it. then in primary 5 i joined the school soccer trials. i was not chosen. then when i'm in secondary school, i joined the school soccer team. as usual secondary 1, they don't get a chance to play for the school because the secondary 2 students conquered it all. when i was in secondary 2, i got the chance to play for the school team, but at that time, the coach still searching for the top 11 and there were almost 20 students. so we played a few friendlies with other schools. i remembered we kena trashed by zhonghua sec and ACS. after the whole friendlies, the coach told me, i'm not chosen. i'm not even in the top 5 substitutes. haiz... Thank God i got the chance to wear the school jersey playing Rugby from sec 3 to sec 4.

during that secondary time, i like the army. i like to play command and conquer games. i like to read this book about army stuffs like ground tactics and other army stuffs, i even like to see army vehicles like the tanks and the jet planes. i also like to read about world war 2 and watch war movies, even during my poly years. then i got my NS letter, saying that i'll be joining the SCDF.

i told my parents if i'm interested in SCDF during my training, i will consider to sign on. and what a sad life i had when i was told that my batch will be going for 7 weeks of basic rescue training and after that, i will be posted to become, comms personnel, clerk, driver, cook, storeman. no firefighter. haiz...

so here i am, a telephone operator cum call transfer cum info counter cum key handler in the academy of SCDF. haiz...

i'm getting fat. oh yeah i am. from 80kg to 87kg in one year. haiz...