Guilty...

aku bagi pihak seniors, aku nak mintak maaf. apa yg telah terjadi, tak guna diperbualkan balik. janganlah kita mencari kesilapan2 itu kembali tetapi kita carilah penyelesaian. buanglah segala hasad dengki dan kembalikanlah ketenangan, cinta, kasih dan sayang.

in competitions, usually before the big event, there will surely be hatred, anger and all those sins that you can name of. and when the big event arrives, we will be either happy because we win, or we will be sad because we lose. and the sins that arised before the competition, will just fade away... except... one... EGO. ego can bring in the sins back. so beware.

when 'he' shouted at the team of GPA 2006, i knew, something bad was gonna happen. i felt guilty for not doing anything. i should have stopped him. because i know the team will surely broke down, either into tears or anger. i have experienced it before but much worst. because i was alone. unlike them, they were in a TEAM, that's why some of them tried to back one another. i respected them for their team spirit.

it reminded me of the team of Pentas Pujangga 2004. i cried because i was being scolded by one of the senior for coming down for practice late by an hour. but they all actually haven't started out yet. actually there was a few problems going on and i suspected that senior was angry and so she just shot at me. i went down to calm myself, then one of my member of the team saw me and asked what happen cos i looked so down. so i let it out. i cried. the team lost anyway. and even in the dressing room when we wanted to go home, shit happened. again it was me and her. that was why the next comp was GPA 2004, i didn't join. because i wanted to release all the tensions and the stress that built up in me. but after that, i still love pusaka seni. when she graduated, i became one of the most powerful man in pusaka seni. hehehe! ok sorry, that part was a joke.

so the moral of the story is, no matter what shits happen, take it like a man. cos these shits will make you a better person.

oh about the pentas pujangga 2004, i got blogged it before. if interested, read it here. Date: Jan 13 2004.